Thursday, August 12, 2010

Gratitude List, 8/12/10

Attitude of Gratitude in 3... 2... 1...

- I'm grateful for my kick-ass friends who talked me out of being sad about my breakup with Cory in all of 15 minutes flat. After telling them the story of our fight and the mean things he said, they pointed out that none of this breakup really had to do with me at all, that Cory showed his true colors for the first time, and his true colors span the entire spectrum of the Douche Rainbow. I'd go so far as to say it's a full Double Douche Rainbow (double rainbow!!!). Tre, Greylin, mom, and Emily, thanks for letting me get it out and then for showing me the douchey light. That guy sucked, no matter how hot he was. NEXT!!!

- I'm grateful for the peace I've been feeling within myself these days. I posted it in a status update last week but it bears repeating: never in my 30 years on this planet have I been so comfortable in my own skin and been so 100% happy with all that I am and all that I have and everything that makes me Me. I love me, all 185 pounds of me, mastectomy scars and all. And I love that I love me. It's nice. ^.^

- I am grateful that I have a 2-month old nephew who is healthy and thriving, and that my sister is also still healthy and thriving. That baby saved her life. Not to mention made her infinitely more tolerable to be around (funny how NOT being on meth will do that to a person...). It's so nice to have an actual relationship with my 24-year-old sister for the first time in our lives.

- I'm grateful that my cousin Melitta is still holding onto every available breath and fighting to stay alive long enough to have a second lung transplant. Come on, Universe, help us out a little bit here. All we're asking is for ONE measley perfect little lung, type AB+. Is that so much to ask? Didn't think so. GET ON IT!

- I'm grateful that my grandma has apparently had an epiphany about where she's at in life and has decided to just accept the fact that she's 87 years old and stop punishing everyone around her for that fact. By all accounts, she's been doing really well over the last week or so, instead of driving herself and everyone else mad. I really hope it sticks and she can go back to enjoying her remaining years instead of hopelessly dreading the end.

- I'm grateful that my massage practice is thriving! Cancer really put it on hold over the last year, which sucked cause I bought this house with the intention that massage would help me pay my HOA and other bills. I'd been living paycheck to paycheck and barely scraping by, so giving 3-4 massages a week is helping me SO much and I'm back where I need to be and am not behind on my bills. Plus, I feel like a much more effective teacher since I'm actively practicing.

- I'm forever grateful for my job, my co-workers, my boss, my employees, and my students. How many people can genuinely say that they LOVE going to work every day? DSMT has been a god-send. I can't believe I've almost been there 2 years already. How did that happen? Time flies when you love what you do (and when you live clinic to clinic...)

- I'm grateful for this fantastic Summer of Stars. Best fuckin' concert year I've had since 1997. Green Day, STP, Tool, Gaga, Shinedown, Toad, etc. Gonna buy Gorillaz tickets tomorrow too. God damn, I love live music.

- I'm grateful whatever that smell in my kitchen was has apparently died and gone away. WTF?

- I'm grateful that my oncology appointment from last week yielded no red flags. WORD.

- I'm grateful that it's getting ever closer to hockey season, with training camp and the burgundy/white game around the corner. Gonna be a good year, Avs fans!

- I'm grateful that the beginning of my tattoo is fucking gorgeous and that my artist is, like, silly talented. I cannot wait to see the finished result. Hopefully he'll start a bit of color next time...

- I'm grateful for YOU, friends new and old. I've reconnected with some hella old high school friends lately (Oh Facebook, you so cray-see) and made some new ones thanks to yet another graduation at work. It's nice to just magically inherit new friends every 10 weeks. Takes the stress out of having to meet new people and I don't even have to join a book club. :)

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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

New tattoo

I had my first 4-hour sitting with my tattoo artist, Ben Gun, yesterday for my "I kicked cancer's ass" tattoo and here's the result. It's not even kind of finished, and there will be more outlining done at my next sitting (Oct 6) when he'll be lining a firey phoenix on the left side of my back with cherry blossoms going up onto my left shoulder. Yeah. It's my whole back. But it's beautifully done and I LOVE it. There's a reason he's one of the top artists in Colorado and has a 3-month waiting list!

In case you're wondering, the symbolism is: waves = emotion, koi fish = courage, lotus flower = strength and beauty, fire = passion, phoenix = rebirth, cherry blossoms = feminine power and sexuality (in Chinese culture) or the delicate transience of life (in Japanese culture). So, yunno, this is a pretty powerful piece for me. Can't wait til it's done, though it'll probably take a year or so... Anyway, just thought I'd share.

He free-handed the drawing on my back with Sharpies first...



And here's the finished outline. I'll be getting the phoenix outlined Oct 6 and then color and shading starts Dec 1. I can't wait!